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1.
Let's start this off with a good line That sounded better in my head This song's the only reason That I got out of my bed No hope, here now No hope, here now Are you even listening? Am I worthy of a chance, just one chance? I'm such a goddamn tryhard Screaming out my senseless rants That's not my problem You're wanting more than I can give That's not my problem You're wanting something I can't do No hope, here now No hope, here now
2.
stupid song 03:45
They never listen all they do is stare at you Watch out for this one they said I was no good for you I hope in your eyes I'm more than just a social tool Won't ask for much just maybe a minute to Breathe You're the smoke inside of my lungs I never wanted to Live that long So what's the deal anyway Is that so wrong Who's it matter to It's just a stupid song Life goes downhill, once you get to 22 From here on out everything is deja vu But not to worry I'll be going down with you Slow it down I just need a minute to Breathe You're the smoke inside of my lungs I never wanted to Live that long So what's the deal anyway Is that so wrong Who's it matter to It's just a stupid song Maybe because I'm foolish Is that a good enough reason to do this? Pursue it Change without influence Move in congruence Like Nike I do it And sometimes I do it just cause it's stupid Just to prove I can do it So what's it anyway This smoke in my lungs Pain while numb Beats no drum Fingered not thumbed Sometimes finished Still not done But let's keep it moving along 7 days makes one week One day makes you strong But for better living Sometimes you need a stupid song Breathe You're the smoke inside of my lungs I never wanted to Live that long So what's the deal anyway Is that so wrong Who's it matter to It's just a stupid song
3.
I've been to one of their meetings above the convenience store Phasing in and out of elevator doors Screaming on the stairs for sweet release Running away from time turning into steam I gasp for air as I choke on irony I've seen beyond what anyone has seen We're living in a hell of our design To be vaporized by the sun shine Now all Is lost Crawl back To dust Poisoned Our blood Summon The sun When will we stop feeding on this wretched corpse Hallucinations of the pale white horse Unholy communion with the Great Ones The rippling of red velvet curtains Celestial emissaries of the God sent Tell us of a future that's past the present Rites of the self induced living nightmare Victims of the sun's burning frenzied stare Now all Is lost Crawl back To dust Poisoned Our blood Summon The sun The sun sets as pink pollutants paint the sky The pit opens wide as radiation barrages against our skulls and soaks into our skin How can our destruction create such beauty? Am I responsible for this? Does the fate of our future rest on my shoulders simply for the sin of being born? How can I save us from these waves of plastic mutilation when I can't even save enough for rent? I guess we'll cross that underwater bridge once we come to it The sun glowers on us from up on high Our eldritch horror in the sky Die by what you deified This Great Machine it cannot stop That's what you get when you kill God Now all Is lost Crawl back To dust Poisoned Our blood Summon The sun
4.
danny devito 02:45
I wanna be Danny Devito I wanna run the Gotham streets I look up to Danny Devito Even though he's shorter than me What's it like Danny Devito To be short and stay sweet? Jesus Christ Danny Devito How'd you get out of New Jersey? Please save me From poverty Please save me From obscurity Please save me From reality Pulled it back as far as it goes Before it snaps back in my face Doing fine as far as they know Moved out to my own place Can't book my band shows Or fucking time in the practice space I think I've hit a new low I think this song is a disgrace Please save me From poverty Please save me From obscurity Please save me From reality Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito Danny Danny Devito
5.
cold comfort 05:06
Everyday hurts the same No mistakes I feel the pain You can't hate me more than I do it's not a good look I wear this mask to hide the truth I'm an open book I write my message on the wall But no one can read my chicken scrawl Thought I could forget it all Why'd it happen to me? There's no frame when you're to blame Such a shame what we became There's no sense in making up it's been too long I've heard that if I fake enough I won't feel so wrong I write my message on the wall But no one can read my chicken scrawl Thought I could forget it all Why'd it happen to me? So tell me What can I do To pass the time? I fell through A poisoned fruit False paradise I failed you Now is that true Are you surprised? I don't wanna be here anymore I don't care what's left in store Like picking at an open sore Why do I do this to me? Thought by now I'd see how It's okay to walk away I don't know when to back out I can't save myself Either that or you're a man only out for himself I write my message on the wall But no one can read my chicken scrawl Thought I could forget it all Why'd it happen to me? So tell me What can I do To pass the time? I fell through A poisoned fruit False paradise I failed you Now is that true Are you surprised? I don't wanna be here anymore I don't care what's left in store Like picking at an open sore Why do I do this to me?
6.
tombstone 06:49
You feel so safe in your ivory tower That's built for protection by your fucking father You haven't looked down and you chose not to see That everyone else is still suffering You say you've worked hard so then why should you share You've fully embraced that this life isn't fair So fuck all your feelings I'll tell you the truth There is a leak in your white shingled roof There's a flood I know I'm no one I know you don't care I know you don't think I'm deserving of air You're born from a rotten root deep in this earth It's the people like you that only see worth So go cry to your daddy and ask for a loan While the rest of us suffer out all on our own Just know when it's done that we're all the same Alone in the ground with nothing but a name Yeah it's done
7.
ennui 03:46
I spend my time chasing a dream that I know that I cannot do I'll spend all my time chasing a dream that I know that I cannot do My life is determined by those with fuller pockets than me Nothing I do can change my reality The apathy around me is sickening Everything around me is sickening There's nothing I can do There's nothing I can do There's nothing I can do There's nothing I can do As it's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes It's all the same And nothing ever changes Ennui
8.
untitled 05:03
Polluted air spewing from the machine Temperatures never before seen This is life in the Anthropocene Why progress when you can make money? They can't seem to face up the facts Constantly nervous no time to relax I can't sleep cause my bed's on fire The whole world's now our funeral pyre I remember in September it was cold outside Public surrender to an agenda that's full of lies The pretender money lender profits as we die Full of pleasure no defender as smoke fills the sky I can't shake this doomsday feeling A constant stirring shaking screaming What can I do when I feel so small? Confident of nothing at all Cold sweats the clock ticks away Inching closer to our last day Lost deep in the illusion of time Pretend that we'll be fine I remember in November it was cold outside Public surrender to an agenda that's full of lies The pretender money lender profits as we die Full of pleasure no defender as smoke fills the sky I remember in December it was cold outside Public surrender to an agenda that's full of lies The pretender money lender profits as we die Full of pleasure no defender as smoke fills the sky
9.
I'm taken back to my old home The clicks and pops of gravel roads Percussion breaks cicada drone The final happy episode The arms come down the train is coming No other way in or out A part of me feels like it's stuck there Would he recognize me now? Now it feels like a lifetime Since I was that small town boy I lost that chip up on my shoulder When nothing could bring me joy I always knew that I'd be something But just what have I become? Am I the person that I dreamed of Or just another faceless cog? And no one's guaranteed a living Not when living has a cost I put my faith into nothing But I don't feel like I'm lost I need something To make me feel whole I feel nothing I have no soul

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the self produced debut album from better living.

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released February 17, 2023

vox/guitar by Gavin Siebrass
guitar by Sam Gaylert
bass by Jorge B-R
drums by Greg Klepczyk
additional percussion by Greg Klepczyk
all lyrics by Gavin Siebrass
recorded by Gavin Siebrass
mixed by Gavin Siebrass
mastered by Matt Goings
album artwork by Ashton Doukas

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